Thank You

Thank you, for dealing with me. I know it's hard.






So Thank You.

You know who you are. :)

Between What's Right And Wrong.

My days has been very.. I don’t know, might say “different” these past few months. 

There are a lot of decisions I never think I’d have to decide. 

My life has been changed a lot. I’m not a decision maker. I never am. I’ve always been that kind of person who’s afraid of taking the risk of any decision. And that’s how all these things became messy and out of control. I’m the one to blame, and believe me, I’ve never meant to hurt anyone. I’ve learnt a lot from this. And I don’t know what will happen next, but right now, I’ll just sit back and let everything flow.

People are just being people, they assume, they judge and they see what they want to see. 

For me, I've got my best friend and my family that will always be there for me, and those are enough.

I’ll always be me. The one who’ll argue and stubborn, that girl who'll cry only by watching  mellow dramatic movie, that’s just me. I’m not going to say that I am proud of what I did, but that’s just one side of my life. And deep down inside I’ll always be me.


Believe me, this ain’t change anything.

“People always think they know others so well, while fact is, they don't. Maybe they know their likes and dislikes, but that's it.” -@catwomanizer

Small Things About Me.

I don't like wearing my watch when i'm all sweating and the weather is freaking hot. I'll just put it off.

I don't eat vegetables.

I don't drink mineral water.

I love pink, any kind of it.

I never wash my hand before I eat.

I love to let my self all involved in my current mood, when I'm having a bad day I'll listen to mellow songs. And so does when I'm happy.

I don't like to sleep. Mostly i go to bed after 12 am and wake up at 5.30 am no matter what.

I get thirsty a lot. And will easily get annoyed when I don't have anything to drink. (Mineral water excluded)

I don't like catching other's eyes while talking. I freaking hate eyes. That's why I don't like being the center of attention.

I am good at talking. So you better watch your words or else, i'll just reverse the situation and might make you feels stupid. *wink*

I get bored easily.

I observe people. So don't be surprised if I could guess your current favorite song, or mood, or even further, personality.

I get offended easily, and might do bad things when it happen.

I am not a decision maker. I don't do decision. I hate decision. You may laugh at it, but that's just how it is.

I speak English fluently, and a man with a good English never fails me.

I hate talking about politics, economics and other smart things. I may know a bit, but I won't talk about it that much.

I don't do small talks.

I love sweet things, i pay attention to other's kindness to me. And will repay it one day. In a way that you yourself might not realize that I'm giving back what should be yours.

I joke, i dance, i sing loudly. Not that i have a good voice though.

If you already knew most of these things, then THANK YOU. 

You've observed me well. 

I feel honored.

Are You?

:) Hey you. 


:( Yea?


:) Are you tired?


:( Define tired.


:) That moment when you feel like you're about to throw up because everything went wrong. Are you? Tired?






:( Well yea, i guess i am tired.

Current Favorite Song

I never meant to be the one to let you down

If anything, I thought I saw myself going first

I didn't know how to stick around

How to see anybody but me be getting hurt

I keep remembering the summer night

And the conversation breaking up the mood

I didn't want to tell you you were right

Like the season changing, oh, I felt it too

Does anybody know how to hold my heart

How to hold my heart?

'Cause I don't want to let go, let go, let go too soon

I want to tell you so before the sun goes dark

How to hold my heart

'Cause I don't want to let go, let go, let go of you

I'm not the kind to try to tell you lies

But the truth is you've been hiding from it too

I see the end sneaking in behind your eyes

Saying things no words could ever do

Does anybody know how to hold my heart

How to hold my heart?

'Cause I don't want to let go, let go, let go too soon

I want to tell you so before the sun goes dark

How to hold my heart

'Cause I don't want to let go, let go, let go of you

Is anybody listening?

'Cause I'm crying

Is anybody listening?

Does anybody know how to hold my heart

How to hold my heart?

'Cause I don't want to let go, let go, let go too soon

I want to tell you so before the sun goes dark

How to hold my heart

'Cause I don't want to let go, let go, let go of you

question.

So tell me....
when is the best time to give up?


Is it when everything falling apart and you can't stand the pain?


Or is it when you can't show them the pain because u got numb already?




Tell me.
I need to know.




I really need to know.

071007 - 071011

I hate it when you play those video games for hours

I hate it when you sleep like a dead man and not answering my call

I hate it when you force me to eat so many vegetables

I hate the fact that you study not that much but you can still afford that good grades at school

I hate it when you are being so insensitive

I hate it when you straighten my grammar

I hate it when u say “terserah” every time I ask you where to eat

I hate your stupid smile every time your opinion wins over mine

I hate it when u mock me for the fact that I know so many Indonesian songs

I hate that everytime I ask you do I look like I’ve gained some weights you’ll wrinkle your forehead just to tease me

                                                           


Yet……..

I love the fact that u are really smart that I called u my walking google

I love that u never need to study hard so that u are always around even during the exam’s week

I love that you are trying so hard for me not to get sick, in your own way

I love the fact that u don’t know any Indonesian songs that you’ll replace the lyric into some stupid words 

I love that your insensitivity become my strength every time i think too much about other's opinion 

I love the way u cant even lie to me, the fact that you tell me everything. Every single thing

I love that you have such a warm family, just like you

I love that you are not even close to be a romantic boyfriend, so that every time my birthday come, u’ll ask what I want instead of looking for some random present that I might dislike

But most of all…..

I love that u teach me not to be a good girlfriend… but to be able to love you with the way I am.

Adrianto Prasetyo Perbowo, I Love You.

Happy 4^th anniversary .